
If a assemblage is undocumented, should we beryllium amazed if the warfare against that assemblage is undocumented too?
The disfigured information of deportation is it is a war. An American warfare predicated connected the aforesaid things arsenic erstwhile American wars: genocide, achromatic supremacy, and assemblage counts. Always the assemblage counts.
As was the lawsuit successful Vietnam—and Iraq and Afghanistan—the astir important happening for America is this metric of progress: their dormant versus ours. A metric of territory mislaid and gained, of daze and awe, of humiliation and pain.
And to those who mightiness say, Well, if this is simply a war, determination indispensable beryllium 2 sides. It can’t conscionable beryllium America versus immoderate vague idea, I’d constituent to American wars connected different vague ideas: drugs, terrorism, socialism (and its “containment”). It wouldn’t beryllium the archetypal clip America has pointed guns and resources astatine thing without a lasting army. And for those who mightiness further ask, If this is simply a war, who are the American casualties? I would respond: Who gets to accidental who is an American?
The deported assemblage removed from America is besides an American body. I deliberation astir America’s Civil War, the warfare of each American wars, fought implicit the dignity and spot of Black American bodies successful the American fabric. And America’s civilian wars successful countries similar Guatemala, Honduras, Nicaragua, Mexico, and El Salvador. American interventions that helped spur the wide migrations we spot today.
The deaths of deportees are, successful effect, portion of America’s assemblage count. A self-inflicted wound.
America’s engagement successful the Salvadoran Civil War, for example, lasted from 1979 to 1992, during which clip the United States supported a fascist subject authorities that ruled implicit a peasant people with torture, decease squads, massacres, and forced disappearances that affected millions, fractured that country, and sent galore refugees migrating north, mostly toward cities similar Houston and Los Angeles.
It has been wide documented that American Green Berets trained Salvadoran subject decease squads passim the 1980s astatine a installation contiguous referred to arsenic the Western Hemisphere Institute for Security Cooperation. The program ran from executions to torture to extortion
One Salvadoran peculiar forces subordinate trained by US Green Berets was Ernesto Deras. He went connected to usage what helium learned determination to alteration the Los Angeles-based pack MS-13. Deras is mostly credited with giving structure, organization, and subject to that gang—many members of which were deported backmost to El Salvador, wherever they founded their ain cells of MS-13, which further destabilized a state that was conscionable recovering from a civilian warfare made imaginable by American interventionist policy.
As caller arsenic 2023, much than 78,000 radical crossed El Salvador were members of MS-13, a statistic that, successful ample part, explains the emergence of Nayib Bukele, who ascended to the Salvadoran presidency successful June 2019 connected the committedness of ending pack unit successful El Salvador. The effect has been the wide incarceration of criminals and non-criminals alike, to the tune of an estimated 108,000 prisoners, oregon astir 1.7 percent of El Salvador’s full population. Among them are deported US immigrants. In caller years, Bukele has pledged to the Trump medication his willingness to clasp adjacent US citizens.
Long aft the Salvadoran Civil War ended with the signing of the Chapultepec Peace Accords successful Mexico City successful 1992, El Salvador finds itself surviving the fallout of American intervention. Many echoes from the eighties ringing retired successful the testimonies of asylum seekers astatine the U.S.-Mexico borderline today, who study fleeing threats of rape, murder, disappearance, and extortion: tools of repression, employed by gangs, that were formerly utilized by the Salvadoran subject nether American training.
It is nary surprise, then, that erstwhile we deport Salvadorans backmost to El Salvador they are killed. For most, that deportation is simply a “death sentence,” to echo the words and probe of Sarah Stillman, who has written extensively astir this taxable successful The New Yorker. Her findings person been corroborated by Human Rights Watch, which published a study that elaborate the outcomes for deported Salvadorans from 2013 to 2019. It recovered that of much than 2 100 deportees researched successful the report, 138 were murdered. Seventy much were abused oregon sexually assaulted by pack members, police, soldiers, decease squads, oregon ex-partners. Approximately eleven 1000 Salvadorans are missing successful the past decennary alone, much than the fig of radical disappeared during El Salvador’s full civilian war.
In Mexico, America’s warfare connected drugs and operations similar the Mérida Initiative person fueled unit and instability crossed the country. The numbers are staggering. According to Mexico’s Comisión Nacional de Búsqueda (the governmental assemblage charged with tracking the missing), astir 134,448 radical stay missing arsenic of this writing, the overwhelming bulk of them having disappeared betwixt 2006 and 2020, which were the astir aggravated years of the cause wars nether US pressure. This is apt an undercount. In that aforesaid fourteen-year clip period, much than 150,000 were killed, including 124 journalists. This is not to see the scores of journalists that stay missing. Mexico ranks twentieth successful the satellite successful fig of femicides documented. As a result, #NiUnaMenos, a feminist radical that originated successful Argentina and whose purpose is to combat complacency successful societies that acquisition femicides, has taken basal successful Mexico.
According to Mexican deportee enactment organizations specified arsenic Otros Dreams en Acción, it has been documented that those deported to Mexico, particularly women, fearfulness for their lives successful the months and years close aft deportation. Trump’s draconian migration measures person made caller deportees and asylum seekers alike casual targets for extortion, kidnapping, and occasionally recruitment by definite cartels on the US-Mexico border.
How invested is the United States, really, successful warring a warfare against drugs oregon cartels if it is actively feeding susceptible people, similar Diego, into that industry? Has that warfare failed by plan oregon by accident? If by accident, wherefore support feeding resources and radical to these wars against achromatic markets? To what grade does that marque us, Americans and our typical government, complicit successful the genocide of a definite people and ethnicity of people? The deaths of deportees are, successful effect, portion of America’s assemblage count. A self-inflicted wound. The nonaccomplishment of talented individuals, the nonaccomplishment of gross home product. But besides the nonaccomplishment of things much incalculable: fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, and uncles. Integral members of American society, whose lack contributes to fiscal and intelligence harm to different Americans—typically children—in ways yet to beryllium calculated. For each the blimpish rhetoric astir who is and is not American (or worse yet, who tin and who cannot beryllium American), determination is the cognition heavy wrong the deportees (at slightest the deportees I know) that they are, indeed, Americans. Despite knowing what America volition bash to them if they are of a definite people oregon shadiness oregon origin.
Many person drawn parallels betwixt Germany’s descent into Nazi fascism and this infinitesimal successful America. The exploitation of radical divides, the wide rallies, the storming of the Capitol, the blurring of information and reality, the unabashed maltreatment of authorities powerfulness to the ends of taste cleansing, which becomes systemic, institutionalized, and accepted. Many fearfulness that the information of this existent way is that it mightiness pb to full-blown fascism. It’s progressively wide that infinitesimal is already present and was agelong earlier January 6, earlier Trump even. After all, helium is simply a merchandise of our American history. And possibly due to the fact that of this, the assemblage number continues to swell nether him good into the 2nd decennary of the twenty-first century. With the panels of the machinery off, we tin spot the decease instrumentality for what it is: a instauration built wholly successful our image. We privation to number the dead. We request to number the dead. We request their dead.
Diego is descended from a agelong enactment of Totonac curanderos. Medicine people. This lineage includes his great-grandfather and his grandfather, but not truly his parents. They moved to the metropolis erstwhile they were young, but returned aboriginal successful beingness retired of some condition and the gravitational propulsion of household and tradition. Diego is arrogant that helium tin navigate some worlds—the accepted and the modern. To this end, he’s arrogant of however helium tin navigate some the labyrinth and the surviving artifact of past that is Mercado Sonora.
He’s not shy astir calling out, successful Mercado Sonora, the things helium knows are scams. The usage of oregano for diabetes, for instance. Or myrrh that looks excessively glossy to beryllium the existent thing. Or brujas who assertion to cognize Yoruba magic (What the fuck adjacent is that?). Or lotions that accidental ARRASA TODO. Obliterate everything. A benignant of cleanse, helium guesses.
With the panels of the machinery off, we tin spot the decease instrumentality for what it is: a instauration built wholly successful our image.
He remembers his gramps utilized to bash spiritual cleanses with a benignant of leafage that grew successful Hidalgo (not sage, thing else), which he’d airy connected fire, and it’d fume blue, blue, blue. You could clasp connected to the leaves, unreal you were smoking a cigarette. He’d determination astir the location similar that. He’d fume the corners his gramps couldn’t reach. Dark corners, debased corners. Get the atrocious ghosts out.
The Germans divided apart, travel backmost together. They instrumentality pictures of integrative bags filled with mushrooms imported from China. Or a sack of rabbit feet, freshly cut. Or an aged woman dressed successful a muumuu who says she’s celebrated and charges 5 pesos to instrumentality a picture. Five pesos much if you privation to usage her friend’s bathroom. They enactment connected a amusement similar Diego puts connected a show. They’re not truthful overmuch anxious to delight arsenic they are anxious to get paid. You wanna spot immoderate weird shit? I’ve got immoderate weird shit.
Diego thinks of Aliana during moments similar these successful Mercado Sonora that borderline connected the absurd. He admired that she could interval financially without the spectacle surrounding immoderate endurance looks similar successful Mexico. She didn’t request to merchantability a mythology. She lived, mostly, successful the truth. Though she was selling his wares, and if Mexican spectacle was what Diego was spinning, was she complicit too? Wasn’t the full cognition of F*CK LA MIGRA a spectacle? Something built for the achromatic gaze. F*ck was an English word, of course. Though was it that hard to decipher F*ck anything? F*ck could beryllium for the Mexican regard too. F*ck could beryllium international.
In Mercado Sonora, Diego doesn’t yet cognize his designs volition merchantability acold amended than helium expected—three times much than helium had planned (with Aliana’s help). At this point, successful the summertime of 2018, she is inactive alive. Many possibilities inactive exist: Aliana could grip selling his enactment successful the United States astatine prices that matched demand. It won’t beryllium until the summertime of 2019 that helium sees a chapeau helium designed for astir 5 dollars being sold for 30 dollars connected an Etsy leafage tally by idiosyncratic who calls herself the Texas Huntress. Someone helium doesn’t know. Right now, successful Mercado Sonora, the chapeau is conscionable an thought successful his head: a achromatic trucker chapeau with aureate laurels on the brim and the words FUCK TRUMP connected top.
So what if Aliana profits from my ideas? Diego thought. He didn’t mind. She provided abstraction for the deportee assemblage and helium was a volume-sales feline himself. It was astir organisation for him anyway. It could beryllium a win-win.
It was astir this clip helium started having nightmares. He died successful his dreams. You aren’t expected to dice successful your dreams, helium thought. He thinks helium tin hint the genesis of these dreams backmost to the level thrust from the United States to Mexico City successful the summertime of 2016. How helium wanted that level to crash. Somewhere implicit Texas would person been fine. Or possibly determination beautiful. The Sonoran Desert, say. Or determination successful the lush greenish of the Valley of Mexico. He didn’t care. He conscionable wanted to die. Better dormant than shipped west. So, what was it? Peace oregon rage that made him privation the level to crash?
Rage for sure—he hated the mode the officers treated him similar a criminal. He wasn’t a criminal. He wanted to die, if lone to ticker them dice with him. Rage.
For a agelong time, helium dreamed astir death. It was ever him who died successful the end. But past 1 nighttime it was Aliana. This struck him arsenic odd, but it was conscionable a dream. Dreams came and went.
“Everyone travel Jesus,” says Diego earnestly. The Germans laughter and repetition the gag with exaggerated pride, arsenic if they invented it. It’s embarrassing, but it is simply a bully joke. We travel Jesus.
One of the Germans puts down his camera, takes a measurement backmost into the radical truthful that helium knocks 2 oregon 3 of his state men over, and conscionable keeps going, “Fuck! What the fuck!” successful English, of each languages.
We look. We spot what helium sees. A statue of a babe Jesus with some eyes gouged out, reddish pouring down his cheeks.
Jesus looks astatine Diego, who smiles backmost astatine him like, I deliberation we did good. And we intermission determination for a beat. The Germans calm down, get an eyeful. They instrumentality pictures each astatine once, having found, finally, the Mexico they dreamed of.
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From How to Look Away: On American Cruelty and the Refusal to Disappear by Daniel Peña. Copyright © 2026. Available from One World, an imprint of Random House, a part of Penguin Random House, LLC.


























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